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Amie McGraham's avatar

Thank you for opening yourself to us. Anticipatory grief so often leads to a deeper awareness of living in the moment. Being present. How the loss of a pet, who loves us unconditionally and knows all our secrets, can be more profound than a person.

You made the right call in cancelling the June retreat. One day at a time. Xo

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sarah e webb's avatar

one day at a time for sure ~ thank you Amie. when we welcome a pet into our home, we open ourselves to eventual, devastating heartbreak. we know, and yet we still take it on. but two stalwart companions in one year? well....that's a lot of life on life's terms, but olive and abby know I'm ready to take these next steps on my own. xo

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Asha Sanaker's avatar

Oh, Sarah. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss of your sweet companions, but also glad to hear that you are making space and time for your grieving and caretaking and that you have found Gertie. You are modeling much that is powerful here, which is itself a gift. ♥

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sarah e webb's avatar

Thank you Asha ~ I'm learning to listen more closely to my heart, to live with integrity.

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Bonnie Jaeckel's avatar

💜💜💜to you, Olive & Gertie💝

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Penny Peterson's avatar

Beautifully expressed. So glad you are making space for your own healing.

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sarah e webb's avatar

I have a lot of guilt about how I was and wasn't there for Abby during her last two months of life, for it was another time I was faced with a choice about where and where not to be. That time I chose to leave her in John's good care and return to Monhegan. This time, I am choosing differently. It is my amends to Abby; it is a gift to Olive and myself.

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Penny Peterson's avatar

There's no right way or wrong way, as you know, just different ways that each have their own consequences. Now you will experience a different way. 🫶

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Penny Peterson's avatar

♥️

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Kathy's avatar

So sorry to hear that Olive is struggling, Sarah. The love & support you’ve given each other is that incredible bond between animal & human. It sounds like that bond has already begun between you & Gertie…life is such a journey.

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sarah e webb's avatar

always a journey for sure but I'm getting better at trusting my path, one step at a time.

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Kim Murdock's avatar

What a beauty she is.

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sarah e webb's avatar

Thanks Kim, I'm sure she'll be on island at some point during the season!

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